Sweetooth's heaven

Dear all, reader of my blog (if i have any btw, haha)

 

              First of all, a BIG apology to all for being in active for the past which seems like a decade.  I guess, this post will be my farewell post to all, but anyhow, i would not want to part from friends that i've met in Msn and so I would like to welcome all to my Friendster.  Add me up if you already have, sign up for one if you don't.  My email is laichia89@hotmail.com . Any fyi, I am currently actively blogging there now.  So do drop some comments on my page whenevr you are free. 

 

Hope to see you soon and hope that this would not be the end to our friendship...(No...No....!NO...!!)

 

 

 

 

 

How are you? Call me if anything comes up will ya? I might be far, but I assure you that I am reachable. 

 

 

So here I am again, at SACC coffee bean. This is usually where I would be during weekends morning.(Although I dont think I can be here anymore next week seeing the state of my wallet). I desperately in need of wireless internet connection and desperately in need of that coffee smell and the ambience, but no seriously, I am hoping to catch a glimpse of him (I am seriously havin a wishful thinking). Being there makes me smile as my mind kept bringing me back the memories when we were working together. So there, that's it. I dont want to live in denial anymore. I ordered the vege cheddar pie, i guess finally my stomach are getting some nutritions seeing how I stuffed myself fully on maggi mee this week for my dinner. The effects of havin the pie must have been good, because after some grumble and mumble inside there, finally the stomach did let out. Gosh, what a innappropriate place to let out... So I stayed there from there's no customer until the shop is full. There's 2 other girls with their laptops sat in front me. Then the part that got me was the part that this couple that sat behind me, in the comfy couch had some Public-Display-Affection(PDA). It wasn't nothing much,(the guy did kissed the girl's palm though) but it is suddenly too much for me to witness everything. So I immediately differ my attention to somewhere else.Suddenly something caught my attention. The evening Manager-On-Duty looks like the popular Indonesia actor-Irwanshah. I mean like seriously almost like the real thing. So as I am writing this blog, I constantly take a peek on him. I am not obssesed with real Irwanshah nor him, but just to make sure that my eyesight are still working. So ok, enough on him now.

 

As i am writing this, I could still feel the pain crying out in my whole body. I've started joining Taekwondo classes this week, seriously straight after I got my black belt in form 5, since then I had stop kicking and punching (lacks of time due to working). So in the 1st class, its back, the stretching (Arg..), the spilt (Arg..), the kicking and punching ( Thank god, I've remember the basics) and finally I didn't expect this on the 1st class, but anyway, it happened- sparing... I didn't basically hate it, but I need time to like tightens the screw of joints in my body. Basically, I felt like shouting - I am not ready..! Kappoow! (I've tried to keep a straight face) My sparing partner and I accidently kicked each other at the same time. Ouch..!! I can feel it in my blood that black & blue bruise are starting to develop in my right leg. It took me 1 day for it to feel better. Then on the 2nd class (Bw, they have classes on every tuesday and thursday per week), we again repeat the same mistake, but only this time it occurs on the left leg. Besides coping on the Taekwondo training and all, we have volleyball practice to tops the week until the Asasi Law Games which will be held around Feb eh? So, I am now officially broke( not broke broke, but still broke), tired, bored (not to say that I dont have any assignments to do), homesick (i am dying for some home made food and pirated DVD's), still not having any flat abs even though I only like starved myself, and yes pain. I am suffered from emotionally and physically pain. I wish that I could see him again when I'm coming back for CNY hols for 1 week. I wish ........ God, I dont even know what to think anymore. I am just terribly missing him.

 

Sometimes, I kept thinking what if I had chosen the other way. I mean being a bit coward than brave. If I haven't be so bold and brave (konon nye), he wouldn't even have to know that I have deep feelings towards him. Then when he pops up the fact that he's seeing someone, I could pretand that I felt nothing. What IFS...?? Life is full with "ifs" and regrets. No matter how fulfilled you lived your life, no doubt at some point of time, we have the regrets. Regrets of having said what have should not being said, regrets of not saying what we meant to said, regrets of not being brave enough to try, regrets of being brave enough and tried... Sometimes, I had just wish that we could edit our life. For instance, we could and take this path, then let just say that the result didn't go too well, we could rewind to where before we took that decision. Somehow, things don't quite happen that way in our lifes. Some wishful thinking...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If I’ll stay, will you be mad?

If I’ll decide to walk away, will you be sad?

 

If I’ll smile at you, will you be smiling back?

If I’ll change for the better, are you wiling to take me back?

 

If I’ll cry and weep, will you be my shoulder?

If my tears started to run down my cheeks, will you kiss them away and make me feel better?

 

If I’m being bullied, will you stand by me again?

If I fell sick, will you care about me again?

 

If I’ll say “bye”, will you cry?

If God has decided that tomorrow I’ll die, will you cry?

If you saw me cry, will you cry?

The songs and the story behind them…

 

     The sun will come out tomorrow – Annie Disney-

                        ~ Currently the top in my favorite songs list. Love it very much=) , can’t just stop singing this song, even along the                  

                           corridor...Ahaha...Love it, especially the lyrics, they remind us that no matter how worst things are, the day will soon pass.

                           Tomorrow will become today, today will become yesterday and yesterday will be a history.

 

          La la la,kerja la – Meet Uncle Hussein-

                         ~ Zahirah’s current craze… Kept singing that part “la..la...la...” I used to be quite annoyed with this song, especially that part,

                           but now, under the influence of Zahirah, this song had been registered temporarily into my mind.

 

         Kekasih gelapku –Ungu-

                ~ I believed that my friends won’t denying that I am so into Indonesian songs...This is 1 of my favorite song sang by Ungu. Besides that it

                   has a soothing melody, touching video clip and what I love most about it is the lyrics… (haha, yes again.) It surprising how they manage

                   to use the right words to describe the right feeling that one felt in certain situation.

 

         You and I both –Jason Mraz-

    ~ Fatimah has been searching for this song for quite some time. But the one that she got from me was the acoustic version (ya..ya...you  

      can hear the audience sound on the background). Finally, her boyfriend got for her the album version. And so she is pleased as a pie…=)

 

           Buat aku tersenyum –Sheila on 7-

                ~ Iylia would definitely murder me if I didn’t mention anything about “her song” knowing her.   (ahaha, just kidding liang). This song was

                   sung by her sweetie, wang. I mean who wouldn’t  go all aww.. and gushy inside to have someone sing for you… (Sorry, I’ve got to stop                    before my emotions starting to drain out from my body)

 

               Creep – Radiohead-

   ~ One of my friend’s favorite songs. And by the way, this is one of the rock songs that I am listening to. Those who know me quite 

      well must have know that I am as what they called me “jiwang kapak” (yes, really nice bunch of friends=p), which means that all I am

      listening to will basically have soapy romantic melody and of course, s.l.o.w…

 

I have to limited up to only 6 songs per blog, to enable me to put up some more next time.               

Tee...Hee...Hee...And for Phisya, I am    going to particularly focusing on her this week as to dig    out the songs that she into currently.

Wahaha… Phisya, I am watching you=)